I bite my tongue, I count to ten

I bite my tongue, I count to ten I tell myself I’m fine again They say “you’re close, don’t let it go” But they don’t see what I don’t show' I’m tired of chasing what I can’t outrun If this was a race, I’ve come undone I’m doing my best but it’s never enough They only see the cracks, never see the love I’m giving my all, still falling behind If this is my best, then why am I lost Why am I lost, still trying to prove Something in me they’ll never choose I’m holding it together, barely alive If this is my best, then why am I lost I follow every rule they make Still somehow miss the line I do everything I’m told to do Just never at the right time I’m screaming in silence, hoping they’ll see I’m doing my best, but it’s tearing at me I’m doing my best but it’s never enough They only see the cracks, never see the love I’m giving my all, still falling behind If this is my best, then why am I lost Why am I lost, still trying to prove Something in me they’ll never choose I’m holding it together, barely alive If this is my best, then why am I lost They say it’s easy, like it’s black and white Like every lesson should be crystal clear I stare at the pages till the words all slide Smile on my face, but I’m burning inside I’m doing my best but it’s never enough If this is my best — then why am I lost?