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Yeah… Bismillah before I breathe, Still fighting what they don’t see. [Verse 1] I wake up with guilt on my chest again, Made tawbah last night, I slipped again. Nafs pulling hard like a chain on my soul, Shaytan whispering lies that I already know. Scrolling through shadows, losing my focus, Heart feels heavy but lips stay dhikr-spoken. Ya Rabb, You see what I hide inside, The tears on the sajdah, the ego, the pride. I’m not proud of the nights I fell, But You never close the gates of Jannah or hell. Every sin leaves a crack in the glass, But Your mercy is oceans — it’s deeper than my past. [Pre-Hook] I fall… but I rise with Astaghfirullah, Broken but still say Alhamdulillah. Hope in my chest like Fajr in the dark, Ya Allah guide me, cleanse my heart. [Hook / Chorus] I’m caught between my nafs and my du’a, Trying to be the man You want me to become. Ya Rabb, don’t leave me to myself tonight, Keep my heart firm, keep my vision right. I’m praying for love that’s pure and true, A wife who brings me closer to You. Build a home where Qur’an is sung, Raise little hearts that say “Allah” young. [Verse 2] I want a love that’s written in light, Not one that drags me into the night. Halal hands I can finally hold, A nikah contract, more precious than gold. No secret messages, no hidden shame, Just barakah written all over her name. May she be patient when I feel weak, Remind me of Jannah when I can’t speak. I’m tired of fighting this war alone, I want a partner to build a throne — Not of dunya and empty fame, But sujood together in Allah’s Name. Ya Rabb, protect her wherever she is, Write our story with Your rizq. Make me worthy before You send, Purify my heart before the blessing begins. [Bridge – Emotional build] I’m not perfect — I’m work in progress, Trying to trade my ego for modesty and softness. Some days strong, some days weak, But every sajdah makes me speak. If You forgive me, who can blame me? If You guide me, who can shame me? Ya Allah, hold me when I’m low, Don’t let me be who I used to know. [Hook – Stronger] I’m caught between my nafs and my du’a, Trying to be the man You want me to become. Ya Rabb, don’t leave me to myself tonight, Keep my heart firm, keep my vision right. I’m praying for love that’s pure and true, A wife who brings me closer to You. Build a home where Qur’an is sung, Raise little hearts that say “Allah” young. [Outro – Calm, reflective] Still sinning… still repenting… Still hoping… still ascending. As long as You keep the door open wide, I’ll keep knocking from the inside. Ya Rabb… Let my last breath be clean. Let my future family be my deen.