I’m Fine, Obviously v3

Verse 1 I drink my coffee cold at 2 a.m. Read texts I never fucking send Laugh too loud so no one asks If I’m okay again I tell my friends I’m over it Like it’s some shit I beat But every room I walk into Still smells like you and me Pre-Chorus I learned how to smile with my teeth Keep my hands where you can’t see If I say it fast enough Maybe I’ll fucking believe Chorus I’m fine, obviously Don’t you hear the confidence? I joke about my trauma Like it’s harmless fucking nonsense I’m fine, obviously If denial was a skill I’d be rich off all the lies That I force myself to feel Verse 2 I wear my chaos like perfume It lingers when I leave I fall for people who feel safe Until they start to need me I say I like being alone But that’s not the whole truth I just hate the moment When someone sees right through Pre-Chorus I keep my edges soft and sharp So no one sees my heart If you get too close I’ll tear it up before it starts Chorus I’m fine, obviously Look at me, I’m holding it Together with a nervous laugh And a fake-ass innocence I’m fine, obviously If I sound a little tense That’s just me learning how to live With shit I never said Bridge (spoken / half-sung) I don’t cry in bathrooms anymore Now it’s in moving cars Feels productive when the scenery changes Like I’m going somewhere far They say healing isn’t linear But neither is my brain Some days I’m healed Some days I miss the fucking pain Final Chorus I’m fine, obviously But if you read between The jokes, the noise, the confidence You know what the fuck I mean I’m fine, obviously Until the lights go out Then I sit with all the shit I never learned to talk about Outro Ask me how I’m doing I’ll say “good”, I always do It’s easier than explaining The ugly fucking truth