Toxic Rain

[Intro] (Mumbled, reverb-heavy, slow build) Yeah... 999... You know how it goes... Heartbreak hotel, yeah... [Verse 1] Percocet for the pain but it don't numb the memories Codeine in my cup, I'm swimming in my enemies You said forever, I guess forever had an end date Now I'm counting pills like I'm trying to calculate The exact dosage it takes to forget your face But the high always fades and you're back in my space Lucid dreaming 'bout you, wake up in a nightmare Empty bottles on the floor, proof that I don't fight fair With myself... [Pre-Chorus] (Melodic, building) And I know that you're gone, gone, gone But my heart keeps holding on, on, on Every substance I abuse Just another way to say I miss you [Chorus] (Full melody, auto-tuned, 808s drop) It's toxic rain falling on my windowpane Washing away the blood but leaving all the stains I'm drowning in the high just to stay low Addicted to the feeling of letting you go But I can't let go, no, I can't let go I'm drowning slow, yeah, I'm drowning slow [Verse 2] Xanny for the anxiety, Molly for the loneliness Adderall for focus so I can write another song about this Vicious cycle, I'm the snake eating my own tail Every love song is a coffin nail You were my heroin, my dopamine, my everything Now I'm just a ghost and I don't feel anything Except when the beat drops and the melody hits Then I'm back in your arms in my mind for a bit Just for a bit... [Pre-Chorus] (Melodic, building) And I know that you're gone, gone, gone But my heart keeps holding on, on, on Every substance I abuse Just another way to say I miss you [Chorus] (Full melody, auto-tuned) It's toxic rain falling on my windowpane Washing away the blood but leaving all the stains I'm drowning in the high just to stay low Addicted to the feeling of letting you go But I can't let go, no, I can't let go I'm drowning slow, yeah, I'm drowning slow [Bridge] (Stripped back, guitar or piano, voice cracks) Maybe one day I'll be clean... Maybe one day I'll delete your number from my dreams... But tonight... Tonight I'm just... [Final Chorus] (Heavy distortion, 808s blast, half-screamed) IT'S TOXIC RAIN FALLING ON MY WINDOWPANE WASHING AWAY THE BLOOD BUT LEAVING ALL THE STAINS I'M DROWNING IN THE HIGH JUST TO STAY LOW ADDICTED TO THE FEELING OF LETTING YOU GO (Soft, breaking) But I can't let go... No, I can't let go... [Outro] (Fading, ad-libs, 808s slow down) Yeah... 999 forever... Still drowning... Still holding on... Toxic rain...