Emotional (Dys)Regulation

[intro] [verse 1 - energetic] I’m steady until I’m not, then it’s like nothin’s right One wrong word and my pulse goes out of sight I’m not looking for drama, not looking for a fight It just lands in my body and I’m holding on tight I try and hold the feelings, to laugh it away But the feeling sticks around like it wants to stay I’m trying to be normal, trying to be kind While the volume hits max in the back of my mind [pre-chorus - rising] Where do I put it, where does it go? It’s too much too fast and it won’t stay slow Tell me to calm and my system goes red I’m not mad at you — it’s just loud in my head [chorus - big & anthemic] Emotional dysregulation like a loaded gun One minute I’m calm and steady Next I’m undone Don’t tell me relax now I’m doing my best Let me breathe it out and come back from the mess [verse 2 - driving] Rejection hits like a punch to the chest Left on read and I can’t get no rest My brain runs a trial, I’m guilty instead I’m lost in the fog and the fog’s in my head I lose my thread, I lose my tone I reach too much, but I wanna be alone I wanna be steady, I wanna be kind But the feeling hits first and I’m losing my mind [bridge - darker, half-time] It’s not anger issues, it’s a bit like a flare An alarm that starts screaming when there’s smoke in the air I need a reset need everything low take a breath and let it pass through slow I’m not trying to punish or to prove It’s just me trying to stop something I’ll do [chorus - bigger] Emotional dysregulation like a loaded gun One minute I’m calm and steady Next I’m undone Don’t tell me relax now I’m doing my best Let me breathe it out and come back from the mess Emotional dysregulation like a loaded gun One minute I’m calm and steady Next I’m undone Don’t tell me relax now I’m doing my best Let me breathe it out and come back from the mess [outro]