Who getting all my love?

I ain’t used to not getting no love Ain’t used to quiet when the night show up Used to your name being my safe spot Now the room echo when the lights shut I ain’t used to missing anyone I was built strong, I was always numb Now every song hit a little too much Heart asking questions I don’t interrupt Who getting all my love? Who holding space when I reach for us? Who hearing prayers I don’t say out loud When I talk to God and say your name too much? I ain’t used to waking up alone No soft “you good?” in the morning tone I stretch my arm, just empty air Faith say trust, but I’m still there I ain’t used to distance and doubt Used to your peace when my storms break out Now I pace floors like a sanctuary Talking to God like “please take care of me” Who getting all my love? Who catching what I still give up? Who feeling warmth that used to be mine When my heart still show up every time? I don’t regret how deep I went Love don’t work if you half-step in I gave grace, I gave truth I gave God every part of you Now I’m learning how to sit with loss Without turning bitter or breaking God I still believe what love can do I’m just not used to doing life without you Who getting all my love? Who holding hands when they feel unsure? Who getting patience, who getting prayer Who getting the man I was becoming there? I ain’t used to guarding my soul I used to give freely, I used to be whole Now I ask Heaven night after night If this is growth or just goodbye If love find me again someday I hope it understand this ache I don’t love small, I don’t love safe I love like faith — even when it waits So until God answer what I been thinking of I’ll keep asking quiet, looking up Who getting all my love? Yeah… who getting all my love?