Not becomming insane dad

Not becomming insane dad

English psytrance track with long hypnotic intro (2–3 minutes before first drop), inspired dramatic energy (not a copy). Intro: whispered/spoken trance monologue with glitch edits. Repeat mantra “I’m not becoming insane… insane insane…” for a long time, gradually intensifying. Insert short story fragments (caravan start, blamed early, no internet, found FL Studio at 21, losses, diabetes struggle, became clean for son, driving at night with girlfriend and son Elias). Sound: fast psytrance tempo, rolling bass, tight kick, psychedelic arps, cinematic builds, powerful melodic drops. Use distorted “dad yelling” fragments only as filtered build samples. Brief soft breakdown with “Ah di læ” before final drop. Mood: controlled madness → self-awareness → empowerment, personal but strong, still sane because of responsibility for son. Festival-ready modern production.

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Lyrics

Title: I’M NOT BECOMING Long Intro (spoken, hypnotic, gradually intensifying): I’m not becoming insane… insane… insane… insane… insane… I’m not becoming insane — I’m already there. Still sane… partly sane… I remember the caravan. Rain on metal. Music low so nobody would hear. I remember being blamed before I even knew what I was blamed for. I remember thinking — why does nobody fight for me? I’m not becoming insane… insane… insane… insane… I’m not becoming insane — I’m already there. Small room. No internet. Building sounds in my head because there was nowhere else to put them. Too many names that disappeared. Too many empty spaces left behind. I stopped crying. That scared me the most. I’m not becoming insane… insane… insane… insane… But I’m still sane. Because I have to be. Because of a small voice calling me “dad”. (beat intensifies) August air. Tiny hands. A reason I couldn’t abandon. May — we brought you home. October — silence again. Just us two. Learning how to survive the quiet. I’m not becoming insane… insane… insane… insane… I’m already there. But I stayed. DROP 1: I’M NOT BECOMING INSANE — I’M HOLDING THE LINE BETWEEN THE DARK AND WHAT’S MINE PARTLY SANE CAUSE I HAVE TO BE SOMEONE HAS TO STAY SOMEONE HAS TO LEAD Verse: They said I wouldn’t last said I wouldn’t grow said I’d disappear like a shadow in the snow But I learned to build from the ground below When no one believed I had to show Pre-Build: Look at me now, dad… I’m still here. Drop 2: I’M NOT BECOMING INSANE — I’M BUILT FROM THE STORM I TURNED THE CHAOS INTO A FORM I’M STILL HERE STILL ALIVE STILL DRIVING FORWARD WITH A REASON TO SURVIVE Bridge (soft): Ah di læ… Ah di læ… A language only love could say. I’m not completely insane. Anyway. Final Drop: I’M NOT BECOMING INSANE — INSANE INSANE INSANE I’M NOT BECOMING INSANE — I JUST LEARNED HOW TO CONTAIN ALL THE NOISE ALL THE PAIN ALL THE THINGS I CAN’T EXPLAIN Outro: Not becoming. Not collapsing. Just continuing. Still sane.