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Verse 1 I wake up every day feeling heavier Like the night never really ends Your name still lives in my mouth But I don’t say it to my friends I count the cracks in the ceiling Trying not to think of you But every breath feels like stealing From a life we never grew Pre-Chorus I tell myself I’ll survive this That I’ll learn how to be strong But I don’t think they understand How being without you feels wrong Chorus I’m not okay, I just pretend I smile so they don’t ask I hold myself together all day Then fall apart when I’m back You were the light I leaned into When everything felt dark Now I’m just learning how to live With a broken heart Verse 2 Your clothes are still in the wardrobe Like you might come back for them I don’t know why I keep hoping When I know how this ends They say “time heals everything” But time just drags you away And I’m stuck here replaying Every word I didn’t say Pre-Chorus I’d take the blame, I’d take the pain If it meant one more night Just to feel your heartbeat In the silence beside mine Chorus I’m not okay, I just pretend I smile so they don’t ask I hold myself together all day Then fall apart when I’m back You were the light I leaned into When everything felt dark Now I’m just learning how to live With a broken heart Bridge (strip it right back – almost spoken) If you ever think of me Please don’t feel guilty inside I don’t blame you for leaving I just don’t know how to survive Without you here to save me Without your hand in mine Loving you was the only thing That ever felt right Final Chorus (bigger, but tired) I’m not okay, and that’s the truth I don’t know who I am I built my whole world around you Now it’s dust in my hands You were my home, my safe place The reason I stayed alive Now I’m just learning how to breathe On the nights I wish I didn’t try Outro (piano fades, voice cracks) Yeah… I’m still here But I don’t feel alive