Almost thirty, candles burnin’ in my head

Almost thirty, candles burnin’ in my head Bought the dream they always promised, still I’m scared Million dollar smile, but it’s counterfeit Penthouse view, yeah, but I don’t feel shit I got the keys to cars I used to pray for Still don’t know what I’m waking up late for Everyone says, “Man, you’re killin’ the game” But I go home alone with the echo of my name Pre-Chorus They love the version of me that performs I’m good in every room, but I don’t belong I’m surrounded, still I’m touch-starved Laugh too loud just to hide the dark Chorus I got everything they said I would need But I’m lonely in a life that looks perfect on screens I’m still waitin’ on a love that feels real Someone who can see the cracks and still feel If you feel this hole in your chest like me Maybe you’re the one who was meant to see I don’t wanna be fixed, I just wanna be found Yeah, I’m rich, I’m successful — but I’m breaking down Verse 2 Mama wanted peace, so I wore the suit Graduated, punched the clock, did what I was supposed to do Nine to five felt like a slow goodbye To the kid in my head who just wanted to try Family says, “Why you gotta be so strange?” “Why you always think too deep? Why you never change?” They tried to shape me into somethin’ safe But normal always tasted like a mistake Pre-Chorus I did it all so they could sleep at night While I stayed awake fightin’ my own mind I love ‘em, but they never knew How heavy it feels bein’ misunderstood Chorus I got everything they said I would need But I’m lonely in a life that looks perfect on screens I’m still waitin’ on a love that feels real Someone who can see the scars and not steal If you feel this hole in your chest like me Maybe you’re the one who was meant to see I don’t wanna be fixed, I just wanna be found Yeah, I’m rich, I’m successful — but I’m breaking down Bridge I train all day ‘cause rejection hurts Tryna outrun the past, put in the work If I’m perfect maybe you won’t leave If I’m stronger maybe you’ll choose me I barely breathe, I barely rest Scared if I stop I’ll feel the mess I believe in love, I just don’t trust That it won’t walk away when it sees the dust Break I don’t need a savior, I don’t need advice Just a hand that stays when it’s not picture-nice Love me loud, love me weird Love the parts my family feared Final Chorus I got everything they said I would need But I’m empty in a life that’s applauding me I’m still hopin’ on a love that’s brave Someone who won’t flinch when I show my pain If you feel this space in your soul like me Maybe we’re not broken, just unseen I don’t wanna be normal, I just wanna be true Yeah, I’m searchin’ this world hopin’ I find you Outro Almost thirty, still believin’ somehow That the right heart will hear me out Till then I’ll keep my faith alive Even lonely, I won’t let love die