Never Give Up

My family's all here yet I'm still alone all night Breaths becoming harder, my chest is squeezing tight Palms sweating like a river Thoughts racing with the flow Miles on my feet Wall to wall nowhere to go Fear steps up and quickly reveals It's evil, ugly head Helpless woe and senseless fears Fill the emptiness with dread Slowly the darkness of day draws near With notions of pending doom Outside a world brightly shines Yet I'd rather not leave the room A fluttering chest Catching breaths when I can Light stays dark, hope stays lost Feeling much less like a man An inner edge screams silently Drowning each and every sane thought A mournful notion whispers to my soul In a bottemless pit I am caught No decision I make is right Hollered between my ears You'll never get out, you're stuck for life Soundless mutters confirm my fears Telling me I'm never right Urging me not to fight Slowly the evil convincing me Every day will be dark as night No place to go, nothing to do They don't understand and never will One more tab, another capsule Go ahead, try one more pill It's a vicious cycle, been there to long I'd hate it to end like this But I'd take it all from everyone To bring back those like Chester and Chris But I can't take it all Only mine is for me And I can't save the world That's a fact I can see It's hard to face the senseless fears When they're raging on my back It seems so relentless, so evil A never ending attack Being in the hole it is constantly Trying to steal all my joys So hard to get out and do the things I once did with the boys But I know I can push through Fight it with so many tools I'm not letting some mixed up grey matter Keep making me look like a fool I have opened my mind New ways to be freed I am no longer hiding I have planted new seed Seeing the worries as senseless Unreal self made woes Demons can rage in the muted light But they're no longer my personal foes They are part of me Something I should not hate It's just how I was created A simple matter of fate So I'll move forward now Practicing what others preach I'll face these troubled traits Through lessons survivors teach I know I'll never be totally free But a happy future is now what I choose To those who are fighting an internal battle Don't ever give up, we don't have to lose.