Another Heart Outside

[Intro] (Instrumental Solo) [Verse 1] I learned to stand where the ground remembers names Stone under polish, breath held in frames They taught me weight before they taught me want Taught me silence was a kind of bond I carry rooms that never close Keys that fit but never chose [Verse 2] Headlights cut the dark in strips Something crawls where thought unzips Eight thin legs across my skin Not a threat, just staying in I don’t crush it, I don’t move I know what survives by losing proof [Pre-Chorus] I was built to hold and not to lean To look composed where it turns obscene But every night the body knows What the mouth refuses to propose [Chorus] There’s another heart outside of me Breathing cold where I can’t be She stands quiet, mud and mane Knows my hands, forgets my name If I vanish, she stays real That’s the only thing I feel [Verse 3] You gave her to me with blood on your hands Like a child who doesn’t understand That gifts can bind harder than chains You laughed, I gagged, we stayed the same She was born while I looked away I helped anyway [Verse 4] She’s mine, but she lives with you Like everything I never move I visit, touch, then step aside Ownership without a side You press your forehead into her heat That’s as close as you get to me [Pre-Chorus] You don’t ask, you never did You take the moment while it’s lit I count exits, you count sparks I survive, you tear the dark [Chorus] There’s another heart outside of me Hooves in frost, lungs in steam She holds the weight I never show Stands where I won’t let myself go If I break, she doesn’t kneel She’s the only thing that’s real [Verse 5] My father speaks in measured terms My mother nods where silence burns They say “later” like a law Like time itself can sand the flaw I say no once, too late, too clean Public hands, private scene [Verse 6] Laughter sticks like winter wine A strike that lands but leaves no sign I smile like it didn’t stay But my body keeps the day [Bridge] You smell like paint and overheating wires Like someone arguing with fire You say stand still, I obey Because stillness is how I don’t decay Your hands know where I break first Left shoulder, old, rehearsed [Verse 7] You don’t want love, you want relief You don’t want touch, you want belief That you still exist in skin and sound Before the noise takes all the ground [Break] I give you what I never claim Hold you steady, take the blame Wash my hands like that erases What we traded in these spaces [Chorus] There’s another heart outside of me Beating slow, not asking please She carries what I can’t confess Without hunger, without mess If I leave, she won’t appeal She’ll still stand. She’ll still feel. [Verse 8] The moor knows patience better than God It waits without a moral nod It takes you only if you stop It holds you while you think you’re not [Verse 9] I’m not falling, I’m not free I’m just done pretending carefully I plan my exits like a craft Not a leap, a measured draft [Outro] If I burn, I won’t be ash I’ll be distance, I’ll be past But somewhere breathing, dark and warm A body holds my truer form Another heart outside of me Just standing where I once stayed