Can’t believe we’ve been together for 7-8 months n

Can’t believe we’ve been together for 7-8 months now, and I cant lie, this whole relationship have single handedly exeeted and sort of reshaped my view of a romantic relationship. On the way to Indo, I found a few of my rambles throughout middle school to high school. And I shit you not, most of it was literally about how I could never see myself in a romantic relationship :skull: I rambled about the fact that a romantic relationship doesn’t seem like something that is suited for me. As much as it’s true that humans are social beings, I never once thought that I could share a life with someone that intimately. I strongly value my friendships, and that was sort of how I started my previous romantic relationships. Through that, it sorta got clearer that I could never be in a romantic relationship. I love the concept of love and I was fond of the idea of falling and being in love. However, I never really got deeply to that part myself. As much as I valued my previous relationships, it became the reality check that I can’t be in that type of relationship. I was selfish, and frankly I still am. So I figured that getting into a relationship, let alone having a serious one was never a possibility for me. Then I went to the beach on a random Thursday. I’ve always liked strolling the beach alone. It later became a space where I could just let go of my worries for a brief moment and just do the most gabut shit ever. I didn’t think I’d share such a space with anyone. Funny thing was I did end up doing that, and it was with someone I never would’ve expected. It was with this random brown eyed mullet dude I got to know through JP class. We literally did the dumbest shit together. We bought ice cream, sat by the beach and talked about some random shit too. Then we found a huge branch and started drawing on the sand. Of course, knowing both our personalities, we drew the infamous male genetalia and cats. We weren’t even close, but we built a tiny crab civilization together. We just happened to resonate during the right time. And I didn’t really know what it was. The type of soul read that felt like some voodoo shit. He wasn’t even supposed to be there with me on that day. He just happened to stick around. It was funny. He was funny. From that day, we sorta started spending more time together. Neither of us thought of it as anything more than that too. But everything about getting closer to him felt stupidly scary. It’s like I enjoyed spending so much money and time to modify a bike, but I don’t even have a license to use it. So I laid off the modifications for bit because I was under qualified to commit and give this bike a happy life. But this mullet guy said, “I like bikes. I have a license too.” And now, I can’t really imagine a life without finishing that project with him. Commitment was never really something I figured I could settle with, but committing with you felt just right. There’s no doubt that we’ve crashed and will crash this bike several times more. But before you, I would’ve never thought repairing it would be an option. You helped me view life more positively, and most especially, helped me experience the love that I never imagined I’d experience. I loved every second I spent riding this bike with you, and I hope to add more seconds to that duration for as long as possible. I love you Aradhana Pranaja Dhirgatara. 君が側にいるから、それだけでいい。 So what I’m tryna say is like, will you be my Valentine?