Title: “First Time Since You”

Title: “First Time Since You” Verse 1 I changed my shirt three different times Mascara on, then wiped my eyes It’s just a drink, that’s all it is But my hands are shaking like this I almost texted I can’t make it Old reflex I still haven’t shaken Two years learning to be alone Now I’m walking out the door Pre-Chorus It feels like cheating on a ghost Even though you let me go Chorus It’s the first time since you I’ve let somebody new See me laugh, see me try See the light back in my eyes I’m scared of what’s still true And what my heart might do But tonight I’m breaking through It’s the first time since you Verse 2 They’re kind and easy, talk real slow Don’t reach across the table too close And when they ask about my past I feel the shadow of what we had I say your name without the ache That used to hit me like a wave And for a second I can breathe Like you don’t live inside of me Pre-Chorus I still wear scars I can’t disguise But they don’t see them in my eyes Chorus It’s the first time since you I’ve let somebody new See me laugh, see me try See the light back in my eyes I’m scared of what’s still true And what my heart might do But tonight I’m breaking through It’s the first time since you Bridge Maybe love ain’t one-time only Maybe hearts can heal slowly Maybe moving on ain’t betrayal Maybe it’s survival Final Chorus It’s the first time since you I didn’t compare or undo Every word, every move Like I always used to do I don’t know where this goes But tonight I finally know I can feel something new It’s the first time since you Outro I drove home smiling… and it felt strange But not wrong