Title: NOT BECOMING

English psytrance track with long hypnotic intro (2–3 minutes before first drop), strongly inspired dramatic psychedelic energy (not a copy). Intro dominated by rhythmic spoken mantra similar in structure to classic psytrance vocal builds. Repeat “I’m not becoming insane… insane insane…” in evolving patterns, stutters and pitch shifts so it feels iconic and hypnotic but original. Gradually intensify with glitch effects and tension. Insert short autobiographical fragments (caravan start, blamed early, no internet, found music late, losses, diabetes, became clean for son, night drive with girlfriend and son Elias). Sound: fast psytrance tempo, rolling bassline, tight kick, swirling arpeggios, chaotic builds → euphoric melodic drops. Use filtered “dad yelling” fragments as rhythmic noise in builds only. Soft emotional breakdown with “Ah di læ” before final explosive drop. Mood: controlled madness, resilience, empowerment, deeply personal yet festival-scale.

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Lyrics

Title: NOT BECOMING Long Intro (spoken, rhythmic, evolving): I’m not becoming insane… insane… insane… insane… I’m not becoming insane — I’m already there. Still sane… partly sane… Caravan nights. Rain on metal. Music low so nobody would hear. Blamed before I even knew why. No internet. Just noise in my head trying to become sound. I’m not becoming insane… insane… insane… insane… Too many names fading out. Too many empty chairs left behind. I stopped crying. That scared me more than anything. I’m not becoming insane — I’m holding the line. August air. Tiny hands. A reason I couldn’t abandon. May — we brought you home. October — silence again. Just us two. Learning how to survive. I’m not becoming insane… I stayed. BUILD: Heartbeat rising. Voices breaking. Pressure shaking. Still not breaking. DROP 1: I’M NOT BECOMING INSANE — I’M ALREADY THERE BUT I’M STILL SANE CAUSE I CARE PARTLY SANE CAUSE I HAVE TO BE SOMEONE HAS TO STAY SOMEONE HAS TO LEAD Verse: They said I would fade said I would fall said I’d be nothing nothing at all But I learned to build from the ground below When nobody believed I had to show Pre-Build: Look at me now, dad… I’m still here. DROP 2: I’M NOT BECOMING INSANE — I’M BUILT FROM THE STORM I TURNED THE CHAOS INTO A FORM I’M STILL HERE STILL ALIVE STILL MOVING FORWARD WITH A REASON TO SURVIVE Bridge (soft): Ah di læ… Ah di læ… A language only love could say. I’m not completely insane. Anyway. Final Build: Night road. Headlights. Two voices in the backseat breathing. Elias… Final Drop: I’M NOT BECOMING INSANE — INSANE INSANE INSANE I’M NOT BECOMING INSANE — I JUST LEARNED HOW TO CONTAIN ALL THE NOISE ALL THE PAIN ALL THE THINGS I CAN’T EXPLAIN Outro: Not becoming. Not collapsing. Just continuing. Still sane.