“NOT MINE TO GIVE”

“NOT MINE TO GIVE” [Intro – Punk | Fast, raw drums, distorted bass] (Half-shouted) Yeah! No, no, no — This body’s a rental and the clock’s ticking loud! [Verse 1 – Punk Rock | Driving guitars] I wear my skin like a borrowed jacket Sleeves too long, and the seams all fractured Every mirror says, “You don’t own that face” Just a ghost in a temporary place Heartbeat like a riot drum Saying, “You don’t know what you’ve become” Every breath feels counterfeit Tryna cash checks that I never signed with it [Pre-Chorus – Transition to Pop | Cleaner guitars, rising melody] Tell me why I feel like I’m trespassing In my own veins, overlapping Every thought that I’m having Feels pre-packaged, pre-imagined [Chorus – Pop | Big hook, layered vocals] Ohhh — If my soul ain’t mine to give Why’s it breaking in my ribs? If my mind’s just where I live Why’s it burning like this? I’m standing in a body That don’t feel like home Screaming at the ceiling — “Who’s holding the throne?” If it’s not mine to lose And it’s not mine to save Then why do I feel every cut Every bruise it makes? [Verse 2 – R&B Groove | Beat drops, bass heavy, melodic flow] Slow it down… Late nights in my head, I negotiate With shadows that I co-create They whisper, “You’re temporary” Like I’m just passing through the frame Hands on my chest like, “Is this leased?” Signed in doubt, no permanent lease Even my tears feel second-hand Like they fall for someone else’s grief [Pre-Chorus – R&B to Soul build | Harmonies] If I don’t own my reflection Who’s carrying this tension? If this life’s just possession Why do I feel the obsession? [Chorus – Pop/Soul Fusion | Bigger, more emotional] If my soul ain’t mine to give Why’s it aching to forgive? If these thoughts ain’t mine to live Why do they overtake me? I’m knocking on the inside Of my own skin Trying to find out Who I’ve always been If it doesn’t belong to me Then why can’t I let it go? [Bridge – Soul → Silence → EXPLOSIVE SCREAM SECTION] (Music strips back. Soft piano. Vulnerable vocal.) Maybe I’m just a vessel Maybe I’m just a flame Maybe I’m just a memory Trying to learn its name (Beat stops. Silence. Then distorted guitars slam in.) [SCREAM – Full catharsis] MY SOUL AIN’T MINE TO GIVE — BUT I’M YOURS IF YOU WANNA TAKE IT! IN REALITY IT AIN’T MINE TO LIVE — IT’S MY THOUGHTS, MY MIND, MY BRAIN — BUT THAT ALL AIN’T MINE TO GIVE! IT DOESN’T BELONG TO ME!!! WHO AM I INSIDE THIS SKIN?! WHO’S THE ONE THAT’S BREATHING IN?! IF I’M JUST A NAME THEY MADE — THEN TEAR IT DOWN, STRIP THE FRAME!!! [Final Chorus – Pop Anthem | Huge, hopeful but unresolved] If my soul ain’t mine to give Maybe that’s the way it is Maybe I’m just passing through Learning how to feel what’s true If it’s not mine to own Still I feel it when it breaks So if you wanna take it — Take it… But know I’m wide awake. [Outro – Soft Soul | Choir-like harmonies fading] It may not belong to me… But it’s beating in my chest… And if I don’t own the story… I’ll still scream it with what’s left.