Hangman

[Intro] (Spoken, distorted, tired) Yeah... The nights I hang are the days I choke... Funny how that works, huh? [Verse 1] The nights I hang are the days I choke Rope around my throat but I still hope Sunrise feels like a noose getting tight But midnight? Midnight I'm alive, I'm alright I been swinging between okay and not Between "I'm fine" and "I forgot How to breathe without counting to ten How to sleep without the noise in my head again" They see me laughing at 2 AM Don't see me gasping at 8 AM The mask fits better when the moon's out Sunlight burns through everything I'm about [Chorus] So I hang through the night just to choke in the day Rope burn on my soul but I can't get away I'm the hangman and the hanged, I'm the joke and the joker Smiling at the party, dying when it's over The nights I hang are the days I choke The nights I hang are the days I choke [Verse 2] Tried to cut the rope but I tied it too tight Now it's part of my skin, part of the fight I hang with the ghosts 'cause they don't ask why I choke on the answers every time I try To explain that I'm fine, that I'm good, that I'm here When I'm dangling by threads made of panic and fear The night is my gallows, the day is my grave I'm just looking for something I never learned to save Myself... from myself... [Bridge] (Stripped back, acoustic or piano) Maybe one day the rope will break Or maybe I'll learn to climb, not just take The weight... But for now... For now I just... [Final Chorus] (Screamed/sung, heavy distortion) I HANG THROUGH THE NIGHT JUST TO CHOKE IN THE DAY ROPE BURN ON MY SOUL BUT I CAN'T GET AWAY I'M THE HANGMAN AND THE HANGED, I'M THE JOKE AND THE JOKER SMILING AT THE PARTY, DYING WHEN IT'S OVER (Soft, breaking) The nights I hang... Are the days I choke... [Outro] (Fading, barely audible) Still hanging... Still choking... Still here...