i apologise

Baby, I apologise, cah I dragged you through the mud and lies Never meant to make you cry, but the roads had me hypnotised They say you’re too good for me, angel in a world of demons I was lost in the trap, tryna chase cheddar, but lost my reason I apologise… I promise no more lies You’re what I need, but I keep pushin’ you aside Listen Verse 1 Grew up in the ends where the mandem move bait, no escape Mum cryin’ in the kitchen, bills pilin’, heart break Dad ghosted early, left me chasin’ figures like it’s mandatory First time I bagged peas, felt like I finally saw glory But glory’s fake, bruv—skengs in the whip, OT trips Lost my bredrin to the strip, now his pic on my phone, still grips Sabr in my chest, tryna hold patience while the pain hits different Seen man turn snake for a packet, now I move distant Jail cell reflections, starin’ at the ceilin’, askin’ why Why the good ones die young, why the bad ones multiply I was on the roads tryna provide, but the system tried to swallow me Now I’m spittin’ for the mandem still trapped in the colony No cap, life’s a gamble, roll dice with the reaper Lost too many soldiers, now their ghosts in my speakers I apologise to the ones I hurt tryna stay solid But the streets turn boys to men overnight, no logic [Hook] Baby, I apologise, cah I dragged you through the mud and lies Never meant to make you cry, but the roads had me hypnotised They say you’re too good for me, angel in a world of demons I was lost in the trap, tryna chase cream, but lost my reason I apologise… promise no more lies You’re what I need, but I keep pushin’ you aside [Verse 2] Now I’m out the cage, but the cage still in my mindframe PTSD from the block, every siren sounds like my name Tried to flip the script, but the script flipped on me first Lost my queen to the hurt, now she ghost like a curse She said “you’re too deep in the streets, I can’t compete” I was tryna build a future, but built walls instead of peace Mandem still callin’, “bro, come link for a move” But I’m tryna break cycles, not repeat what my olders do For the kids in the flats dreamin’ big but see no path Mum workin’ doubles, dad in the pen doin’ half I pen these bars like therapy, bleed on the page Turn pain to paper, hope it heals with age Never say sorry for mistakes if you learn from the lesson But I done too many wrongs, now I’m prayin’ for blessin’s One day I’ll crown her proper, no more temporary fixes Till then, I apologise—tryna fix what the roads twisted [Outro] Yeah… I apologise To the ones I let down, to the pain I caused inside But I’m still breathin’, still fightin’, still risin’ Sabr, innit… one day the sun gon’ shine different For the real ones still holdin’ on—free the mandem We gon’ make it… trust.