Unwanted Want

[Intro – muted piano arpeggio, distant rain ambience] (Instrumental Solo) [Verse 1 – slow 808 thud, crackling vinyl texture] I stared at your smile across the room Fingers itched to brush the hair from your moonlit bloom A thousand times I rehearsed the move But every bone in my body knew the truth [Pre-Chorus – subtle string swell, quiet hi-hats] My chest tightens up when you laugh that way I count the seconds 'til I can escape This weight in my lungs won't let me breathe I'm drowning in a want you'll never see [Chorus 1 – layered vocal harmonies, deepened 808] Do you have any idea how much I wanted to kiss you tonight? And knowing it's completely unwanted Every thought feels like a fight Here in this broken heart How do I make the hurt stop? Certainly not seeing your face It just makes the clock tick slower, makes the pain pop [Verse 2 – faint guitar strum, echoing vocal effects] I walked you home 'til your porch light glowed Mumbled goodnight, my voice was low I almost said the words I've always known But you waved and turned, left me alone [Pre-Chorus 2 – rising synth hum, faster hi-hats] I trace the cracks in my bedroom wall Replay the night 'til my vision falls This fire in my chest won't burn out right It's a cold, dead flame I can't ignite [Chorus 2 – intensified vocals, added snare hits] Do you have any idea how much I wanted to kiss you tonight? And knowing it's completely unwanted I'm stuck in this endless fight Here in this broken heart How do I make the hurt stop? Certainly not seeing your face It just drags the night longer, makes the pain crop [Bridge – stripped back piano only, intimate vocals] I'll lock these feelings in a box Hide it where the shadows walk Pretend I never felt this way 'Til the dawn chases the dark away [Solo – distorted guitar wail, building tension] (Instrumental Solo) [Final Chorus – full instrumental swell, layered ad-libs] Do you have any idea how much I wanted to kiss you tonight? And knowing it's completely unwanted I'm losing this internal fight Here in this broken heart I don't think the hurt will stop Certainly not seeing your face It just keeps the wound open, makes the pain drop [Outro – fading piano, soft rain fade-out] I'll keep this secret to my grave 'Til the last of my days