Pull me under

Verse 1 Living in the black sky, digging my own fucking grave until I fall from what I thought was heaven onto cold, hard asphalt. There’s a deep hole in my heart, carved by my own scars. Blood infected by parasites that pull me down until I can’t move. Breath heavy. Air too thin. Head too full — cluttered. My vision blurs. I can’t see straight. Only the shadow from my past life. Pre-Chorus I don’t know how to feel. Don’t know where to go. Don’t know where I belong. Chorus I feel the dust creeping up on me, eating me from the inside out. It scratches. It tears. Until my blood streams into the open sea. Tremendous waves crash down, pull me under, hold me there— my lungs burning. They don’t stop. They don’t stop burning. And it hurts. They are fucking burning. Verse 2 I try to reach the surface, but something sinks its claws into me, sharp, relentless— dragging me deeper into the dark. And there I see it. The light I’ve been searching for. I follow its shine. Beautiful. Dangerous. I give in. I let it guide me, knowing full well it will bring salvation. Pre-Chorus I don’t know how to fucking feel. Don’t know where the hell to go. Don’t know where the fuck I belong. Chorus I feel the dust creeping up on me, eating me from the inside out. It scratches. It tears. Until my blood streams into the open sea. Tremendous waves crash down, pull me under, hold me there— my lungs burning. They don’t stop. They don’t stop burning. And it hurts. They are fucking burning. Bridge So I swim deeper. Deeper. Pressure closing in, crushing my ribs, crushing my thoughts— yet I follow, desperate for release. The light grows brighter. Closer. Blinding. I think I’ve finally found what I’ve been begging for. But when I reach it— an explosion rips through my chest. Verse 3 It throws me upward. And still, I hope I can escape. I cling to the thought that it might bring me back, that it didn’t betray me to break me, that maybe— it loved me. But in the open blue, I lose direction. Up becomes down. Suddenly— red. I search for the source, terrified of hungry sharks— and realize the blood is mine. Spilling from my chest. I close my eyes, waiting for my fate. A thousand years pass in silence, the sea turning black around my bones. When I open my eyes again, I am falling— falling through the endless void, until I arrive once more beneath the black sky. And I don’t know how— but I know it starts all over again. Optional Reprise I don’t know how to fucking feel. Don’t know where the hell to go. Don’t know where the fuck I belong.