I Hope It Hurts

Verse 1 You wore innocence like cologne Sweet and sharp and overthrown Said I was the only one While deleting proof on your phone You held my throat like a vow Said, “Trust me, baby, now” But every promise that you made Was just a trick you’d figured out I loved you like a loaded gun Safety off, I thought you won But you were sleeping double lives While I was calling you “the one” Pre-Chorus You gaslit me so perfectly I almost apologized For catching you in your own damn lies Chorus So I hope it hurts when she says your name Hope it echoes louder than mine Hope every kiss you give her Tastes like the crime You said you’d die for me Now I hope you live with it Every single fucking second Of the mess you did Verse 2 You made me small, you made me doubt Turned my screaming into a shout Said I was “crazy,” “way too much” While you were sneaking around You watched me cry in bathroom light Mascara bleeding down my fight And still you chose to lock the door And crawl into her night You studied me like weakness You preyed on what I feared You knew I’d forgive you So you never fucking cared Pre-Chorus You don’t get to play the victim now You built this funeral yourself somehow Chorus So I hope it hurts when I move on Hope it tears you up inside Hope you see me shining With someone at my side Hope you feel the panic When you realize I was the best you’ll ever have And you let it die Bridge (slow, venomous) I’m not crying anymore I’m keeping score I’m not screaming in the dark I’m striking matches in your heart You thought I’d beg You thought I’d break You thought I’d drown in your mistakes But watch me rise Watch me glow While every bridge you burned Goes up in smoke Verse 3 (revenge energy rising) I know your secrets, every one The shit you hide, the shit you’ve done The stories you rewrote for her The lies that still drip from your tongue Don’t worry — I won’t expose I don’t need to stain your clothes Your guilt will do it all for me It’s heavier than you know One day she’ll look at you And see the cracks I saw And you’ll swear you’ve changed again Like that fixes what you are Breakdown (cold, dangerous calm) You didn’t just cheat. You dismantled me. Piece by piece. And I let you. That’s on me. But what’s on you? Is permanent. Final Chorus (explosive, theatrical) So I hope it hurts when I stop loving you Hope the silence screams at night Hope you reach across the bed And she’s not me in the light Hope you dream about my voice Hope it keeps you awake Hope you finally understand The kind of heart you chose to break You said you’d die for me — Don’t. Just live with what you did. Outro (quiet, terrifyingly calm) I don’t need revenge. Your reflection will be enough. And when you see me happy — That’ll be the worst part.