Pieces V2.2

Verse 1 It’s almost been a year and the days still move too fast for me The light comes through your windows like it’s looking for your shape The rooms keep all your secrets, they breathe quieter these days Every wall remembers you in ways I can’t explain What you loved is sleeping somewhere, wrapped in borrowed air Waiting for a place that feels like you were meant to be there I tell myself it’s not goodbye, just a longer in-between A future home built out of memory Pre-Chorus There’s a blanket holding warmth that time refuses to erase If I let it fade to nothing, I might lose you in that space Every name I have to write, every promise made in ink Feels like learning how to drown and still remember how to breathe Chorus I hope I make you proud in the quiet and the doubt When I’m learning how to stand back up instead of breaking down I’m gathering the pieces with hands that still shake now and then Knowing they won’t make me whole — but they’re still a part of who I am I won’t be whole until I see you somewhere past the pain Holding all the parts of me I couldn’t keep the same Till then I’ll walk with what I have, I’ll carry what I’m allowed I won’t be whole until I see you — But I’m holding these pieces now --- Verse 2 They dress the season up in gold and call it joy and cheer Like the calendar can tell my heart what time of year I learn how to wear a smile like a coat I don’t outgrow So I don’t spill my sorrow where it doesn’t want to go Every greeting feels rehearsed, every laugh a borrowed sound I’ve learned how to be present while I’m nowhere to be found Still, the world keeps asking more of me than I can give So I give what’s left and call it how I live Pre-Chorus I still turn around to tell you when something shakes me loose Still listen for your voice inside the truth I choose This life is rearranged, the map no longer clear But loving you is the one thing that still stays near Chorus I hope I make you proud when the weight won’t let me sleep When the missing cuts so deep I can’t explain it when I speak I’m learning how to breathe again inside a different frame Trying to live a life that still remembers your name I won’t be whole until I see you, until the ache makes sense Until the silence sounds like peace and not like what you left Till then I’ll walk this fragile ground, soft, unsteady somehow I won’t be whole until I see you — But I’m holding these pieces now --- Bridge Someday there’ll be a place where everything you loved can rest Where your laughter lives in corners and your art is more than past tense A space shaped by your spirit, by the way you showed your light Where missing you feels warmer, not just heavy every night Some days I rise, some days I bend Some days I lose the words and just say “Mom” again I don’t need fixing, I don’t need to be brave I just need permission to grieve you this way --- Final Chorus So I hope I make you proud in the living, in the mess When I’m doing my best with what the day has left I’m still learning how to carry love that doesn’t leave How to hold what’s gone and still believe I won’t be whole until I see you, and maybe that’s okay Maybe being broken open is just another way To love you longer, deeper somehow I won’t be whole until I see you — But I’m holding these pieces now --- Outro If you’re near me in the quiet, if you’re closer than I know I hope you see me trying, even when I’m moving slow Still your child, still finding out how To live with the pieces now